I’m lying awake in bed at 2:30am thinking tick tock tick tock about how I have been up 4 times to wee already, I am tired though tossing and turning wondering about when bub will arrive, will we need to be induced early and then thinking about my PT clients I have early morning and then I felt this overwhelm to share my thoughts as the biggest thing with this pregnancy it has given me more compassion for women, especially how and why so many don’t share their journey with fear of judgement, more compassion for women that feel that they have to be strong & simply suck it up because millions of mums daily are giving birth to babies, it’s just what women do, my goodness we are amazing, WOMEN! I’ve had many people say, you look amazing, your glowing and I do feel more beautiful than ever though this pregnancy has not been a cruisy ride, I wanted to keep it real by sharing the ride, the challenges, the gifts, its perfect example of any big adventure in life, life can life, just simply stop, embrace each challenge, trust in love, choose to see the gift and choose to move forward.
The love story of how it started with myself and Blase ‘When asking each other what’s one dream in life that we haven’t experience yet, we slept on the question and “came together” the next day, & on the count of three we both replied…. “having a bubba”. Our hearts open we trusted the universe would gift us a child when it was meant to be. No other time than the present moment we received our greatest adventure yet. We are both full of gratitude and excited to announce we are expecting a baby boy March 2018. To live, to love, to learn, to evolve, to make mistakes, bring it all on, we are super pumped and ready to embrace all that is ahead of us’
Now being 37 weeks pregnant, what a journey it has already been, the biggest constant lesson of surrendering to the uncontrollable. Let me take you on my journey, not anyone else’s, just mine, the fears and challenges that have popped up along the way. It started with first the pressure if I can conceive, the ‘fear’ in the back of the head, what if I can’t, what if it takes a year, what if I need to have IVF like many other friends (more and more common these days). Though ‘we’ chose to trust in Love and simply be open to receive the gift of life when it was meant to be and boom it happened. Then oh my, don’t tell anyone until 12 weeks, so fear based driven, because the risk of miscarried or early detection, this was something myself and Blase chose to share with people that loved and cared for us, my moto is to do everything from love, not fear, so if I trusted in love, no matter how that looked, I knew that I would want loved ones for support around me and also during those first 12 weeks the pressure of being ‘ok’ when the hormone in-balances were going nuts, one moment being amazing, the next moment crying because my partner cooked lamb shanks and I don’t like meat on bones. The extreme tiredness and fatigue that was so real. I am grateful I had support during that time, I couldn’t imagine having morning sickness on top of that pressure and ‘trying’ to hide it all from clients/friends/family. I feel if more woman reached out, they would feel more supported, more loved, not alone and especially if something did happen like a miscarried they didn’t have to do it alone and also the partners too, they need support during that time too.
Life, business, pregnancy, I tried to do it all as the pressure I put on myself daily to be my best is simply what I do and well, didn’t my body tell me otherwise, surrender, surrender, surrender, I got two lots of ‘cold/flu’ sickness that lasted 2-3 weeks both times, I lost my voice and just getting out of bed was a challenge, I felt weak as I don’t get sick ‘was my expectation’ and I couldn’t train how I wanted to, I was super prepared with my training since being a health/fitness/wellness professional and qualified in pre & postnatal pregnancy, my obstetrician was very supportive of me doing the training my body was so use to, just back a notch etc, this being the general rule. The first trimester I did listen to my body though, even though I wanted to train in my mind, I took it back when I needed to, I had simply surrender and adapt the sail and just take one day at a time. Then to spice the first trimester up a little more, my body reminded me of its previous surgery, bowel obstruction and liver laceration which resulted in a scar approx. 25cm long vertically down my midline of my tummy and with scar tissues comes adhesions which I am very familiar with, well two mini bowel obstructions from the adhesions in the first trimester put my level of fear up for what lies ahead and instantly reinforce to stay away from ‘food’ that stirs it up like ‘bread, steak, heavy food’ I had to stay true in my belief of trust in love and not stress as for me, when my body stresses the first place that holds it, is my tummy. The constant stretching of the scar hasn’t tickled though reminds me daily the gift of life.
The Scans…. the 14-week scan detected early bilobed placenta praevia (shaped like a butterfly) right over my cervix (blob each side) and a short cervix so this changed a few things, increased chance of c-section, so on top of being told NO, you cannot attend the active meditation, no you cannot eat this, eat that, no, you cannot fly to India (what an entire new blog this gift). I was now told, no you cannot run, no you cannot have sexual intercourse (YEP), no you cannot do a starjump, no you cannot lift weights, basically all the things I loved and kept me sane. So as soon as I got my head around that and simply focused on what I could do, I could still climb (gently walk) up mountains, kayak, walk, lower level body weigh exercises, yoga etc though this was a massive awareness of my own expectations/challenges I put on myself and also driven from comparing to others, how their pregnancy looked. I had people look at me weird, why would you want to even want to ‘jog’ or have ‘sex’ and then from the other scale hearing of others doing the ‘jogging’ and raving about their sex drive during pregnancy etc So the lesson for me, was to take away all expectations, and simply take a day at a time, stop comparing to others and look for the gifts. It forced me to be gentler on myself, it forced myself and my partner to connect other ways.
My 18 & 24-week scan checking the placenta and cervix was still the same though on a positive the cervix was no shorter. Though let’s spice it up at 25 weeks with Gestational Diabetes, yep apparently, it’s genetic, nan had diabetes, great nan plus mum’s brother. After going WTF, I am one of the healthiest people I know, how/why, though I trusted it was an opportunity to learn, after a torture talk I had to listen to that QLD diabetes put on for a group of pregnant women with guidelines of what to eat was an entire awareness unlocked, how messed up the system is, lets educate people to eat low fat, high sugar food because this yogurt with fruit is better than this one, or this rice is better than this one, oh wait, when I suggested cauliflower is a great substitute instead of rice, I was shut down and said that was a bit extreme. I believe if the nutrition information that is out there these days were updated with the organisations that people ‘Trust’ and ‘Listen to’ then less people would need to have insulin to manage levels or at least lesser dosage etc. I was able to manage my sugar levels testing them 4 times a day, doing my food diary and simply staying away from starchy carbs which I live by anyway, high protein, good fat, real food diet. Though I was ‘stressing’ my morning fasting reading was all over the place, so then I advised to go for a walk after dinner, ekkkkkk this was challenging considering I was up at 5am, active day as it was and then ‘more’ though I did it, around 7:30pm most nights with swollen sore feet which resulted in tears many evenings, some mornings my readings were ok, some were not ok, some nights my dinner was too early, some were too late, my scan showed that bub was larger around his tummy so the next action was insulin in the evenings only a small dose 4units. Two size scans since and bub is still bigger than they like though levels are managed and awaiting instructions this week if induction will be early pending the size of bub. The biggest gift with gestational diabetes has been reinforcement as to why I choose to eat ‘healthy’ yes, I am human and love my dinners out and treats though when it can affect the health of my baby, doesn’t that put ‘health’ into a different perspective. It also reinforces why I encourage my clients to eat ‘healthy’ real food, stay away from packet food, yes, we all have some genetics we cannot dodge though we can totally look after ourselves and sugar is one of the biggest issues in today’s diet. STOP EATING CRAP PEOPLES!
Another gift of the GD, brings me to I have I express a little milk (Colostrum) before bub arrives if I can, I tried it last night for the first time and that was an interesting experience. Though seriously women? How much pressure/expectations are there to breastfeed, daily I get different opinions based on people’s own experience, some saying, persist, don’t give up, breast feeding is a must, then others saying, it’s too hard, don’t bother, then others saying express, it makes life so much easier, talk about confusion…. And then on top of that, what if milk doesn’t come in etc, once again fear comes up from pressure/expectations, reminder this is my journey, it will be what it will be, I have intention to breast feed and will go day by day. I simply want to ride this wave and support other mums to do the same.
The gift of surrender, after surrendering to the likelihood of my birth to be a c-section with my placenta praevia, I was over the moon my 32-week scan showed that my butterfly shaped placenta had moved, OMG what a surprise, ‘unexpected’ we instantly booked in for calm birth class with the possibility of a natural birth. I am so glad that I did let go of all my expectations around this and totally surrendered, my surprise showed me how much I did surrender and then funnily enough raised new expectations when talking about the birth ‘preferences’ with my partner, he wanted to say no drugs etc, I shared how putting that restriction creates more pressure, I have intention though as below I mention ‘no attachment’ I want do embrace the wave I am riding and have power with my choice in each moment. Trust Trust Trust. It’s funny though how many people pretty much laughed at us with doing calm birthing classes, which just is cementing where the belief systems come from, so fear based, yes it will be painful, though having tools to embrace it instead of fight it and tense up more seems like an awesome investment.
The stress pregnancy has put on my relationship with Blase is another story, plus going into business together at the same time is additional gifts of pressure, it’s easy for the guy to forget the woman is pregnant, they have no idea how the body aches and pains feel, the vulnerability of not being able to do what you normally do and the constant fatigue, and not to mention my own miss independent women ‘story’ that I have created the life I want and now have to put my hand up and say ‘hey, I need some help’ I have had to step into vulnerability and simply adapt to how business now looks, evolving, changing, creating a life for our ‘family’ now. The biggest thing during our journey has been communication, I have to admit, I can suck at communicating, thanks to my mentors Alexi Panos and Preston Smiles for having great tools to help and we also reached out to Shems Heartwell a relationship coach to help us with our stuff to ensure we have tools to help us when bub arrives as its no hidden secret that life will life more when bub arrives. It’s about having courage and not pretending everything is like roses and simply asking for help and support when needed. It’s about taking responsibility that we are doing what we can do to better ourselves as individuals. Relationships are not happiness, relationships are opportunity of growth and about combining your own inner happiness together.
As I am typing this, it reminds me of my carpal tunnel, my aching lower back, and my feet aching as they are down, OUCH, I am actually going to pause my blog and finish off later as my hands are hurting, probably for a month now, I wake and throughout the evening and can’t even grip my body pillow to move it as they are so painful and not functioning.
Back to the blog now after my morning sessions, running my own business, when to stop ‘work’ was the hardest thing to surrender to of all, for starters I love what I do, and secondly to put trust in the amazing trainers I have to look after my long-term clients. Though I am finally surrendering after hitting a wall two weeks ago of burn out because simply I was doing too much, I have physically only two more days left of sessions and then I will manage the business and support from the rest positon as I transition into motherhood. Already the past two weeks from slowing down the feedback has been amazing about my awesome team trainers Belinda & Jodie, the clients love them, they both have unique gifts which make them uniquely awesome trainers. It’s about trusting in life forever changing and now this is my turn to really look after myself. I trust the next part of my journey will create even more passion to inspire ‘all’ to live a happy, healthy, active, adventurous life, LOL I just had a giggle, that’s another entire topic, peoples own experiences and judgements projecting onto me, saying things like ‘you won’t be climbing mountains when bub arrives’ pfffffff well that’s for me to decide, I am so excited about what is coming next, the challenges, the gifts of awareness, the growth, I am so excited for including bub with MAB Personal Training & Adventures and also our sister business Experientia Sunshine Coast, only two weeks ago I took a kayak session with 10 women over to ‘Mel’s Escape Island’ and only last week took a corporate group of 140 through a big beach Olympics, yes life will be different when bub arrives, I am not in denial about that, though it will be my journey to figure out, it’s about being aware of the expectations/pressure on self and also by others and detaching from them, having intention to see what I want to create, is powerful… I feel if more women picked up others and supported others that ‘anything’ is possible it would empower more women, rather than disempowering them with fear. That look that I have been given by so many mums ‘ahhh you have no idea’ hasn’t been very supportive and I will ensure I give more of a look ‘you’ve got this’ to newly mums that I encounter in the future because I have really appreciated that empowered womanhood look by a many mums that I am grateful for. Once again, pregnancy, motherhood, business-hood, life-hood, relationship-hood, is all about our own journey, not anyone else’s.
Well wrapping up this blog as I have some nesting to do, the walls have all been sugar soaped cleaned and now I have a few cupboards I want to clean out, crazy nesting stuff….
This blog has been great reflection going into birth any day now to let go of expectations etc, how my birth will look like, yes, I have my intention without attachment to outcome, though my goodness, so much pressure again, natural water birth, no pain medication to c-section etc…. it will be what it will be, ‘CALM is my super power’ as a beautiful friend quoted in my baby shower card that I only re-read yesterday. And then will come the after birth, the pressure/expectations loss of weight gain, getting my body back, SERIOUSLY the crazy shit that goes on in a women’s head, calm my farm, calm your farm if your reading this and simply enjoy each moment that it is, be present, remember this is your journey like this is mine, there is no right or wrong and there is no comparing as everyone’s body is different and everyone’s experience is different, that’s what makes life so interesting.
All of these ‘things’ ‘challenges’ ‘obstacles’ are all that, it’s just part of my journey, and most of them will be gone and a distant memory when my gorgeous bub arrives though what a journey it has been.
Feel free to private message me if you want to share gifts of your journey and women, ladies, chicks, queens, goddesses, stand together raising each other up because we are pretty freaking amazing.
I have so much gratitude to all
When I decided I wanted to create adventure wear because I felt I looked like a tom boy in all my adventure photos and believed I could create a product that was functional and beautiful, I never knew how amazing it would feel seeing people all over making adventure beautiful in MAB Adventure Wear.
I want to personally Thank every person that has supported my vision and purchased MAB Adventure Wear, my heart is so full of gratitude that so many of you appreciate making adventure beautiful as much as me.
Feedback is what I love most from happy customers like Justin Jaxon
I have to share how much I love my adventure wear. So comfortable and the colours actually contribute to feeling happy. I love the pockets on the side for my key and phone. Great length so no riding up when I run. Hardest thing about this awesome product was choosing which colour and style to buy first. Cant wait to purchase more
And what brings me most joy of all, is to see so many beautiful ladies getting outdoors, connecting with nature and totally rocking their MAB adventure wear over the Sunshine Coast, Australia, right where it is manufactured.
I am thrilled to announce that ‘MAB Personal Training and Adventures’ are sharing even more adventures with locals and visitors to our beautiful Sunshine Coast.
With adventures being my signature and biggest passion and the Sunshine Coast being one of the most popular destinations to visit in Australia, it makes perfect sense to expand this part of the business even more.
Oh and did I mention that one of my biggest adventures to date was spending the day with the beautiful Sofie Formica and the TV show, ‘The Great South East’.
Yep just a few weeks ago ‘MAB Personal Training and Adventures’ got to spend the day with Sofie and the film crew, I am sure that you can imagine just how super excited I was about being able to share my passion and love of adventure with the world. I took the team on the ‘MAB Glass House Mountains Discovery Adventure’ which is to the foothills of the Matthew Flinders, the adventure is a combination of:
History, ‘Matthew Flinders was the first European to set foot on the Sunshine Coast, when his crew disembarked from the Norfolk on 19 July 1799’
Nature, ‘Discovering the waters of Pumicestone Passage to the mountains and hikes of the Glass House Mountains’
Kayaking, ‘Down the still beautiful Bells Creek Pumicestone Passage, The majority of the locality is part of the Beerburrum State Forest’
Mountain climbing, ‘The unique Mount Ngungun 253m high, 2.8km return. Open forest with a fern understorey, woodlands, a small rock overhang, caves, spectacular 360 degree views from the top of Mount Ngungun, close-up views of nearby Mount Tibrogargan, Mount Coonowrin and Mount Beerwah’
Hiking, ‘We walk around the base of the beautiful 364m high Mount Tibrogargan, the circuit being 3.2km in total. Mount Tibrogargan is located between Beerburrum and Glass House’
Fitness, ‘What better way to burn calories and work up a sweat then being outdoors in nature
Food, ‘Enjoy healthy yummy delicious snacks and lunch by The Paleo Place
Fun, ‘MAB makes it fun, it’s all about the experience’
HOW awesome is that?
Sofie totally loved the adventure, especially the mountain climb, she said, “mountains are her happy place”, which of course I personally relate to. There is something about climbing a mountain, it’s a like a metaphor to life ‘When you reach the top, you feel on top of the world, as if you can do anything, you feel alive and empowered’. I was honoured that Sofie even got involved in doing one of the famous #mabstarjump, we did a group star jump on the top of Mount Ngungun.
The MABSTARJUMP is all about ‘Living Big’, our moto is:
And do lots of STAR JUMPS
Because life is totally worth celebrating”
Having years of experience sharing my adventures with MAB clients I feel confident that I have the tools to help people of any fitness level to enjoy this adventure. I believe adventures can sometimes bring up fears for people, however I find with the ‘Power of Intention’, the adventurer can make an MAB Adventure something even more magical by saying goodbye to their fears and saying hello instead to their awesomeness.
Nerves……. What nerves, If you know me, then you know that I love to talk and that I get very excited about the outdoors, however as soon as camera was pointed on me, I went all shy? What the? Me shy? Never, right? I can’t wait to see the see the piece ‘The Great South East’ has put together, what I know for sure is, ‘It’s going to be perfect’.
I find it amazing that by living the life I love to live, I get to share with others, to inspire them to live a happy, healthy, active, adventurous life full of love. My heart is beaming with gratitude to the point that it could explode and I am smiling from ear to ear.
I am super grateful for ‘Visit Sunshine Coast’ and ‘The Great South East’ for helping MAB get our adventures out there to locals and visitors alike, and I am also super excited and grateful to all current clientele for continually supporting MAB and joining in on the new adventures that we are continually coming up.
Let’s get adventurous…If I have inspired you to the point of adventure, contact me and let’s DO IT TOGETHER, I’m offering a GREAT SOUTH EAST SPECIAL CELEBRATION ADVENTURE – Book an adventure with me in the month before the end of September to receive a buy one adventure, get one free (yes that means you can bring your friend for free). Contact me on 0401 286 200
Merry Christmas all, what a year 2015 backing up 2014, time flies when your having fun right? well certainly did in my case, I had intention to blog so much and that didn’t go to plan. It’s life really, it doesn’t always go to plan, its about adapting to changes, embracing the challenges which makes the ride so much more fun, speaking of ride, let me share the ride of 2015 that included so many awesome moments with so many awesome people.
I personally started the year in Canada & San Francisco, I felt I didnt’t get back into the swing of things till February. I knew I had a big year ahead though writing this I am still over whelmed at how big it was, once again the power of intention, be clear and you can manifest what you desire, also this year I did adjust and adapt by cancelling events that I just didn’t have the energy to do after Africa as that was the most amazing experience ever and also it took loads of energy out of me, more so when I got back I just wanted to process all the gifts of the trip.
Highlights of 2015
- MAB 30 Adventure Lifestyle Challenge
- Canada & San Fransico Adventure
- Magic Mindset Weekend
- Painted my house (now that was a moment to remember)
- MAB Mount Kili Team started training
- MAB 10 week Challenge round 7 kicked off
- MAB 10 week Challenge round 7, We did wake boarding, outrigged, Aerial Silk/Lyra Training
- MAB guest trainer for Annette Sym Wellness Retreat
- MAB Studio 4th Year BIrthday (MAB Olympics)
- MAB 10 week Challenge round 7, we entertained caloundra with the Amazing Race, we climbed 6 mountains in one day
- Pretty in pink bra walkathon, we sent Dimity and her family to Disney Land, had over 500 people attend
- Amy Woods Joined our team
- MAB started Big Boing Sessions
- MAB Skydive Adventure for Kims Birthday
- Caloundra Netball Team Bootcamp
- Challenge Dinner Celebration
- Mount Warning Mindfit Weekend Adventure with an awesome crew
- Give me 5 for kids charity golf day
- MAB won Westfund Hero Award
- New Zealand Adventure, Bungy Swing Jump, Horse Ride through NZ, Helicopter over Milford Sound, Paraglided, Hiked, Snow Boarded
- 30 adventures, 30 days, 30 dollars, we did so many mountains and adventures
- Lip Sync Competition for Beautiful You Charity
- Sunshine Coast Womens Lifestyle Expo
- MAB Adventure Wear Released
- Miss Muddy
- Mega bootcamp fun
- MAB Africa Adventure Mount Kilimanjaro, myself & the team, Pippa, Chris, Julie, Tegan, Russ, Ben 1, Ben 2 and Robyn – AMAZING
- Trekking with the Gorillas – AMAZING
- Charity Golf Day for CHARGE Syndrome
- Pole Festival
- Myself, Amy & Kim did 500 burpees each
- Full Moon Night Climb
- MAB Adventure Wear nominated in Sunshine Coast Fashion Festival Awards
- Amy & Kim Fun day at Caloundra Christian College
- MAB Pt & Adventures finalist Sunshine Coast Business Awards
- Monday Mad Mission
- 6 multi mountain adventure for the challenge
- All stock in for MAB Adventure Wear
- MAB 12 days till Christmas, workouts, adventures & recipes
- Weeks of awesomness left
- Many awesome bootcamps
- Many awesome personal training sessions
- Many awesome moments
- Many awesome kayak, mountain & hiking adventures
- Many awesome adventures
Paige, Geri, Cassie & Kate have all had babies, and so many people achieved so much, Shelagh launched her book, Debbie launched her business, Bay did the Blackall 100, Jen graduated as Dr Jen, Leanne Travelled the world, Sue, Mandy, & Anne travelled US, Janene did South America, Renee, Shelagh, Geri, Janene, Michelle, & Amy did Miss Muddy, Justine & Laura did the Camino De Santiago, Justine, Jess, Natalie, Meah & Lisa did Mount Tibro for the first time, Bruce & Jeanette did Mount Kinabalu in Borneo, Tania, Melissa, Toni & Jules did the great ocean road, Ray & Sharyn went on a bike Adventure through Switzerland, Austria, Germany & Lichtenstein, Michelle travelled Dubai, Joanne & Mark travelled Europe, Jane has been on many overseas adventures and off again for christmas, Vicki & Kim retired, OMG so much happened, everyone did have an amazing awesome fun adventurous year.
Thank you to everyone that contributed to making 2015 an awesome year for MAB. You all rock and you all matter. A massive thank you goes to Kim Bowmaker & Amy Woods for playing such a huge part in making the MAB team so awesome.
I would like to say thank you to all of my amazing clients for giving me the privilege of helping you this year. I love each and every one of you. A special mention goes to my long term clients who have been around for many years. I am truly touched and thankful for your loyalty, love, respect and friendship. I look forward to creating more awesomeness in 2015.
A huge thank you also goes to the many local businesses for their support and sponsorships in both the challenges and fundraising events. It is uplifting to see the community come together to create positive change and I am grateful to be part of such a giving community.
And finally… I would like to thank my family and friends for their ongoing love and support. You all put up with my crazy ideas and then support me with them even when they seem impossible. I love you all xox
My gift to you for 2016 be open to adjust your sail, be open to adapt to change, and most of all is to set some time aside for you, just you, sit in nature, feel inside what your heart wants, feel inside what makes you feel alive and do that, be clear of your intention. I will blog in detail about some big moments like Mount Kilimanjaro as I feel I have more to share with you all as sharing is caring. Right now though let’s all set a MAB group intention to live an adventurous, happy, healthy, active, fun life with awesome people, and of course, do lots of starjumps as life is totally worth celebrating
Have a very Merry Christmas & a Happy New Year